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Thank you for the very cool recording. Loved it. Sagittarius in 12th house (3 things in 12th house - but I don't remember right now which house system it was), but it's my sun sign. My first year (and more) was difficult because my 20 yr old mother was so (understandably) stressed and unhappy. Her 26 yr old husband returned after WWII having been seriously injured (navy, his ship was attacked) with what we now call PTSD, but which they used to call being "shell shocked" and which his doctors did absolutely nothing about. He was simply told to get over it once his physical injuries were healed. We now know that's not how it works. My mother had a newborn infant (me) but no help from anyone, living in an area where she had no friends or family and no job (she was from Oregon but we were in the Bay Area). Also, her father had died fairly recently which had been devastating for her and which she blamed her mother for. My father couldn't sleep at night due to his PTSD so would stay up all night drawing intricate amazing pictures and try to sleep during the day. He would get angry if the baby (me) cried keeping him awake during the day. They had no money and no help back then from the government. He was incapable at that time of holding down any kind of a job. My mother didn't fully understand what he was going through and he didn't understand why a baby (or my mother) would need to have food to eat (of course back then mothers were told not to breast feed). On top of that, my mother's ignorant doctor told her she'd never get pregnant again due to this and that, but he was wrong and she found herself pregnant again by the time I was 2 or 3 months old. My sister was born early (both of my parents smoked) before I was even 11 months old. The only memories I have of my parents together (when I was 2) are of them arguing and of my mother being upset. Finally out of desperation she took my sister and me up to Portland where the 3 of us moved in with her mother whom she couldn't stand and who said that she didn't like children. All the adults in my family life were a mess for many years. I was a sophomore in high school before realizing that I probably would not die at the hands of my step father's anger. But my sister and I became very close. I didn't learn how to cry beyond my early childhood until I was in my 40's thanks to a spiritual teaching that helped with a lot of healing and for which I will be forever grateful.

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Jonathan Parnell's avatar

Many thanks!! Job interview tomorrow.

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